Rain-Rain-Pls-Come-Again!

It was raining and I couldn't stop myself from going out and dancing and then coming back inside and drinking a hot cup of cocoa sitting huddled up near my window with a book.

Theres no point in being grown up if you cant be childish sometimes, someone had said.

B-A-C-K aftr a short B-R-E-A-K!

Ok I'm kind of back. I was travelling like crazy, bored of office and when i came back our year end closure started and when they got over, well I just couldn't get myself to blog.

Thats a Lot of excuses but I'm not lying :D

I have a lotttttsssss of stuff to write so I thought I'd come back to blogging before I developed one of those blocks again.

So I'm back!! :D

Go - JUMP!!

On a saturday morning at 9.00am we were stuck in a closed conference room and everyone around me was droning on and on. I was sitting in ths agonizingly boring quarterly financial meeting... N the group was hashing and re-hashing an issue that was - or should have been - already resolved.

I was sitting and counting verbal tics of someone whom i hate to the core in my team for smetime..Yes, I know it's childish. But,it was fun.

Post lunch, I was BORED... EXTREMELY!!!
DRONING... :O

And pinged my other colleague who was online on MSN..

Mahi Prakash says: Hey sauce... wass up
Sashi Singh says: Nothing much swty
Mahi Prakash says:I'm so bored yaar.
Sashi Singh says: Same here da.
Mahi Prakash says:: I've done everything except maybe Bungee jumping in my life.
Sashi Singh says: Then go jump!
Mahi says: :O :S

Go Jump, I still dont knw wht she meant, go bunggy jumping or is it she politely askd me to get lost. ???? :-S

Anyways, finally ths boring meeting went faster and gave me smething to laugh abt with my colleagues in the conf room... napping & snoring was out of the question aftr my chat wth Sashi...! :-)

AUR kaun hai??? ;)

I've been waitinggggg for a conversation like this to happen, to somebody else, if not to me.

N It did, at my friend's wedding:

I had been to chanpatna (near mysore)to attend my frnds wedding, He had booked a farm house for myself and his colleagues.. And b'caz i was the only girl i got the bedroom wth attached bathroom and his other colleagues slept in the hall as all the other rooms were occupied and were using common bathroom..

On the day of the marriage when i got ready n came dwn to the hall i saw 2 guys waiting fr the bathroom...

I knew one of them so i askd him to use my bathroom and gave him my room keys but the other south indian guy (swami) who was also waiting for the bathroom got very irritated and shouted at the North Indian guy inside, "Abbe kitni der se udhar kar kya raha hai??!!!"

The guy inside (a Bihari) replies, "Hum naha rahein hain!!"

Swami (turned red):"Oh!! Aur kaun hain andar??"

Dont ask me wht was my reaction aftr listening to tht!!! :D:D

I've always liked calling myself "hum" though I don't do so. Stuff like this is bound to happen if I did!! :P

NO-Thing-Doing!! :-)

It feels so wonderful. So very wonderful. Right now, its the best feeling in the world!!!
:)
No I am not in love!
:|
My idea of the most wonderful feeling right now for me is the pleasure I get out of doing nothing. Absolutely nothing.
I've spent the entire weekend at home. I haven't done anything useful thing and yet I'm not bored.
Weird...!
All those weekends when I had submissions on Monday or a meeting or anything at all on Monday, I'd spend the weekend doing nothing, crib about being bored and not work at all.
So I'm feeling so very happy for not utilizing my weekend. Yaaay me!!! I wanted to watch a movie to celebrate it so I went and got "Veer".

N now I'm back to writing senseless posts again. (read rants).

Ok logging off - Lemme go do something more stupid and useless. ;)

Its such a phenomenal feeling I tell you. The feeling that you have done nothing!! :):):)

Finally...I think i know what i want...

I think i'm maturing. I think I'm finally getting to a stage in my life where i'm finding peace...where I don't feel that anxiety that I used to feel. We grow up thinking that our romantic life is the definition of our happiness... i'm a twenty two year old woman who has finally realized that there are other things in life that need to be explored. Someone recently told me that we cannot be happy with another person until we are happy with ourselves....I think he's right... and I think we should only get involved when we feel that the other person is also capable of making us happy... i realize it now that when people put obstacles they are really telling you that they don't have space for you in their lives...why should I force anything?

I'm maybe ready for things that person is not, and that's fine... if it's not him, it will be someone else. I believe that life has a funny way of working itself out and things happen if they are meant to happen... both people have to want it... we all have to be on equal footing and it's not fair for one to sacrifice more than the other...that's coming into a relationship also with a greater risk of getting hurt than the other person. With that said, i will continue investing in love but only if it happens naturally, i will no longer force it to happen with whom i want it to happen with and when i want it to happen...

I believe love will come my way one day... again... and that the person will be ready to give me what i want and vice versa... incredibly enough a person that used to make me feel vulnerable and weak is helping me find a strength. I didn't know i had and I feel less vulnerable and more in control. I'm a wild horse... i shall run free.... and anyone that falls in love with me will not want to control me by trying to control the situation but will want to run free with me... It will be their loss anyways, not mine.... I always give one hundred percent of me when I care about someone so with that said, I will keep living my life and doing things that make me happy...and perhaps live a bit more and think less.... maybe kiss more without thinking of compromise. I'm no longer imprisioned to anyone anymore and that feels great!

Cheers...

Good bye..2009!

Thank you 2009 and a very good hello to 2010! Oh my resolution for this new year ? hmm.. i guess that would be to do a good job in whatever i do in the future.

2009! You treated me really good . I had my ups and downs, (esp: health related n recession fvr)

I was on the brink of giving up but then I rise and I was ready to face whatever the future was waiting for me. Made a mess of my life but soon turned to a new leaf . Seriously, I m a whole new person if u know me personally. I m tougher, no more gullible but still rebellious hehe but overall, m becoming more wiser, brighter and i laugh louder ;). I realized life has so much to offer. You just have to believe in yourself and chuck what everyone think about you , the negative ones of course!! ;)

It was a quiet eventful year actually.. Dad got posted, bro stepped into his coll life, jim is rocking as usual, lot of cousins came n went, son became father, Ak47 (anuj Khanna) joined our team n left n nw Rakhi Sawant has replaced him, Ram (my boss) adopted a baby girl, Raj, Naeema got married, Mami Still NOT MARRIED, Pu,Reme n Meera got new bosses n all (PINTA’s), one b***ch kind of tried ruining my life at wrk but left soon, Amy had less fights wth her m-i-l ths yr but bops is still not back frm mysore, Keet, guess got a new bf, Sashi is still ON wth her ajab prem ki gajab kahani, Durga still spinster, yog still a bachelor, hey but sujith & Manish got engaged…. N don’t ask abt me!!! :D

Friends come and go. But not in 2009. Thank god i still have my old friends with me. Though we didn’t spend the time like we used to but hey, at least we still have each other ken! I love you guys to the very core.

Im sorry for the things i did or said that might hurt you guys,i promise i would become a better friend in 2010 :) Doesn’t matter old friends or new friends, lets make more memorable memories together alright?

2009 actually started with a bunch of new ppl, Ive started to grow fond of them. In end of beginning of 2009,i met sathya. I think that was the highlight of my year. Not in a million years i would hve ever thought that i could be so close to him, until now haha -____-" Cliché , but saty has open my eyes wider, he helped me to get thru things, in his own way ;) He’s a criminal for irritating me. But yes, he made me forget the pain from the past . Thanks saty-baty!

Things are gonna b very challenging next year, even the thought of it makes me cringe. Will be moving out of blr vry soon.. I m starting to feel the pressure, no joke!! M sure next 11 months are filled wth lotttt more surprises, my mantra is just to ‘blv in myself and evrything will be okay .. !!

Well let me get back to my normal life now… PROBLEMS and UNSETTLED things!!!

I guess that's life. no matter how much i hate it, i still have to go through it. ok i should be signing off, BOSS is CALLING!!! Grrrr..!!